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trackerjackered

[Whimpering in the back of her throat, she curls in on herself a little more. Damn him for being so understanding...she could handle yelling and even being hit, it was what she was used to, she was still adjusting to genuine kindness though.]

I need to do something for you. I know you don't want me, but I want to bring you meat or something. Allison was right, you're not like the people from my home, not like my parents. You haven't tried to use your power to sleep with me or even raised a hand against me when I've stepped out of line and probably earned it.

I don't know how to handle someone being this nice sometimes and I lash out...I was so sure you were getting ready to kick me out, that you didn't think I was worth the trouble. Seeing how upset you were when you saw how rough my client got though, it made me see that you really...aren't like my mentors. You would have cared if he took things too far.

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probablygonnakillsomeone

I did--I do, and I'll make sure he never hurts you again. [Even if it means actually working at the brothel. He did get an offer that first couple of days he was in New Dodge...

He sets that thought aside for the moment, and frowns to himself for a second. He can't stand to see her get even more upset, and it seems like it's not helping for him to take care of her. She said it herself: she's not used to kindness.

So he has to figure something out. For her sake.]

But if you feel like you need to do something? You could...uhm...uhhhh...feed my cow for a while? [Hey, he's working on the fly here.

Though he does think of something else more productive and perks a little.]

Plus? You and me can go for a run a couple nights a week. So you can nail complete control. So you don't have to stay at the asylum anymore.

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trackerjackered

[She nodded once, looking away for a moment.]

...He wasn't supposed to take it that far, couldn't have paid enough for that. He was allowed to choke me, but not to where I blacked out. I could have fought him, probably could have broke free if I tried harder. All I felt though, once the panic was gone, was relief. I was scared I was losing the pack, losing you, I didn't want to go through that again. [For that moment, she thought she'd sooner die than lose everything again.]

I'd like that. Both. Never really been around a cow before though.

...And if I never have to go back the the asylum, I'd appreciate it so much.

From:

probablygonnakillsomeone

Then we'll do that.

[A beat, and though he's still gentle, this time he's a little more stern. Partly for her benefit, but mostly because this much is law in his eyes, it's absolute fact.

And she needs to learn.]

And as for me? Unless you stand in front of me, and tell me to my face that you don't want to be in this pack anymore, you will never lose it. Or me. Unless you say otherwise, I will always be your Alpha, and whether you like it or not? I'll always be your friend. Got it?

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trackerjackered

[Smirking, she nodded with a chuckle.]

Yeah, I'm...I'm getting that. I just worry that I mess up sometimes. I'm trying, but Peter was particular about rules and I remember what you said about hurting people in town.

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probablygonnakillsomeone

If you mess up? You can fix it. And if something happens, and someone does get hurt? Just talk to me. If it was an accident or justified, we'll get through it.

...that's another thing you can do if you wanna make stuff up to me. Work on talking to me if you're not sure about something, or if you have a problem. I promise you, I'll never get mad as long as you're open and honest about stuff.

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trackerjackered

I'll try. It still feels like I'm asking for help when I do that and I feel like I shouldn't have to ask for help. Like I'm doing something wrong and should figure it out on my own.